Happy Birthday, Hannah

Happy Birthday to our sweet Hannah girl. It's hard to imagine she's been gone two years. Some days it seems like a lifetime ago, and others it seems like only yesterday. That's one thing I've learned about this greiving process, it doesn't get easier, it just gets different. This birthday was much harder for me than her first. I think with Jackson here now, everything we never got to share with her is so much more real. Jackson was such a blessing today though, he gave me extra smiles and kisses, which made it a little easier.

We spent the day with just our little family. I thought maybe we could take a walk through the zoo or something, but of course it was rainy. So, we went to get supplies to make her a cake, which I think turned out so cute. :) It was so great to have Jackson's help this year, he sat in the kitchen and we chatted while I baked.

We took him out to get some pictures by her tree, something I've been meaning to do for a long time. He mostly just wanted to pull the buds off and when he couldn't do that, he thought maybe it was time to head back inside.

We've decided to make a donation in Hannah's name each year on her birthday. Last year our great friend, Brooke put together donations for NILMDTS, which is the organization that took the photos of Hannah in the hospital. They do this for greiving families free of charge, which is a beautiful thing, I cherish the photos we have of her. This year we are donating to a 5 month old little girl, Scarlett Grace and her family. She was diagnosed with a brain tumor at her 2 month well check and has been fighting for her life ever since. I've followed their journey through their blog and they definitely have a special place in my heart.

I will miss my sweet Hannah bear always, but my boys make me so happy.