Happy Birthday Hannah Avery!

Today Hannah would be one year old. This was a difficult day, but made easier with all the wonderful cards, flowers, phone calls and well wishes from the best set of family and friends anyone could ask for! We love and appreciate you all so much. It means the world that Hannah is loved and remembered by you all.

Matt and I spent the day together with our memories of Hannah. It always makes me feel closer to her to talk about her. It was a very peaceful day. We baked a cake for her, just like we would have if she were here.

The last year has been the most difficult of our lives. Some days it's still so hard to believe she isn't here with us. I often imagine her as she would be now, running around the house in her pigtails and looking up at me with what I'm sure were beautiful brown eyes. I also think of what a great big sister she would be. I am so grateful for Matt. He has really been my rock this year and has given me the strength and courage to move forward.

Alex wrote a poem that really touched us, and we would like to share it with all of you.

My Guardian Angel
You passed before we got to hold your precious hand,
Or look into your beautiful eyes,
Or see your smile.
You were taken away,
And we don't know why.
We don't think it's fair.
But in reality life isn't fair.
No one can ever take your place,
Or have the place in our heart the way you did.
I just want you to know I loved you,
I always will, forever.
Everyday I think about you.
I think what if,
But I just hope you're in a better place now.
I'm glad you didn't have to suffer.
I know you are my angel now.
And you will always be with me.
I love you Hannah.

We are very hopeful for all the things this year has to hold for us. We absolutely cannot wait to meet Pistachio! We are moving forward but are taking Hannah with us. We carry her in our hearts and are so thankful we had the nine months with her that we did. Mommy and Daddy love you, sweet Hannah bear!